I was just sitting around this evening listening to some Damien Rice and contemplating things since Melanie is down at my parents with Ashton. I was thinking about all the beliefs and thoughts I had when I was 21 and how they had changed quite a bit since then. I sometimes feel that my outlook on life is a little more negative than it was 10 or 15 years ago. I don’t know if I am getting more bitter with age or maybe I’m just stuck in a rut and it’s just affecting other things in my life. One thing lately that I think has gotten me out of that possible rut was the birth of our son, Ashton. I think sometimes God puts things in your life to shake things up so you get your priorities straight. I just hope God will give me the patience to control my negativeness and show Ashton how positive things in life can be. I know that the only memories I have of my childhood are good memories and I want him to sit back when he’s 36 like I am and reflect about how happy his memories of his childhood were. I guess I want to say that I hope I can do as good a job of bringing up Ashton as my parents did with me.
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